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Today we had what I think was our first workshop of the semester. We worked on improv!
I've always wanted to act, but never really knew how since my parents always put me down for taking an interest in it. They'd always tell me that if I tried to get into that field, it'd be hard to find a job. I've always had some kind of stage fright. I'm afraid and self conscious of what I'll look like, if I'll make a fool out of myself because I know what goes through my mind when I see people who can't act. The stage is scary stuff when all eyes are on you.
I don't see myself as a particularly good actor, although I'm trying to improve. What really sparked my interest again was that this summer I went on a cruise to Alaska and an improv group from The Second City was on board as performers. I watched one of their shows one night and it got me thinking. It was on my mind for quite a while. I hesitantly talked to my sister about it, and she told me to "go for it. We need more asian actors anyway!" I also read Tina Fey's auto biography, Bossy Pants where she talks about her as a woman in the career of showbiz and comedy.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm whining (and probably am), but I feel more comfortable behind-the-scenes designing sets and stuff just because I know I'm good at it.
I want to break free from my shell. Step outside the box a little bit, be a little brave.
I just don't know if I can do it on my own.
Ah, Michelle, dear, you don't have to do it on your own. We can all do it together.
ReplyDeleteI think you'll be very good at the acting stuff, actually, and I'm generally not wrong about these things. Sometimes... I think sometimes people dissuade us from trying things because they fear that we will excel and achieve in a way that they cannot understand/control. It is very hard being a parent. I speak from experience.
There are winds in our lives that come along and take us to place. Sometimes we fight the wind, sometimes we give in. And just because you are taken somewhere does not mean you cannot go back, or that where you are taken is where you're going to stay. We're blown like paper, the path cannot always be predicted.
There tends to be a lot of wind in STAC.