Day 3 - Say What You Need To Say

I had a mini mental breakdown today regarding my work. I didn't what to do (I still don't) and where I was headed with what I had in mind. I wasn't going to sit around and suddenly wait for the answer to magically pop out of nowhere, so I asked for advice.

I went to Luke for some insight on my trouble and did a terrible job of explaining of what I was having trouble with. I think because I have so many thoughts running through my brain at the same time, I'm trying to say them all but instead it comes out sounding like verbal vomit.

Anyway, he gave me a two books that I'll have to take a crack at. The Spell of the Sensuous, and Molecules of Emotion. I'm stil unsure where I'm going to go with this, but as of right now I'm just going to read and draw at the same time and see what the fuck I come up with. I also think I'm going to just wipe my entire slate clean and just start over fresh. I don't want to focus on Art Nouveau anymore or Tarot Cards or any of that bumblefuck- I want to do me.

I'll gather what inspirations and influences I can and just paint. I'll close my eyes and let my hands do the thinking for me. I don't know what I'll get, or when I'll get it, but it will come along.

Oi.