I fucked up.

I did, I fucked up real bad.

And I have no one to blame but myself.

Jealousy is an Ugly Thing

Jealousy is just one of the many things that don't come labeled on the package of love.

Envy is a monster lurking within even the purest of hearts.

It bides and waits for just the right moment to strike.

It knows that you'll give into it eventually,
that you'll let yourself fall into it's hypnotizing clutch.

Jealously feeds from the inside out. 

It starts in mind, slowly devouring any shred of morality.

Jealously is never satisfied.

It doesn't stop, and it never will.

At the same time however, it's exactly what fuels us.

Better Together

Relationships and love are peculiar things.

They come with equal parts of perks and complications. 

While it can fill the empty void in one's heart, it can also make a person go mad. 

Take a step back and just look at the larger picture; is it really all worth it in the end? 

Do you suffer more or do you gain more? 

What are relationships? 

What is love?

Respect for yourself or others?

What Luke made STAC do the other day with the little "quiz" in my opinion, was a total dick move.

Yes it was harsh, but it was necessary.

I'm rather glad he did what he did. We as STACies needed a good hard slap from reality saying that everyone is acting absolutely childish and that it was time to grow up; Luke did exactly that.

And for that, I applaud him.

Freshman vs. Freshman

It's a headache.

Don't get me wrong though; I love every single one of the freshman in my group and I know that my "annoyance" with them only exists within the group project, but it was quite difficult to get stuff done when no one would shut up.

The problem was pretty clear. Since everyone had such great ideas, each person wanted to drive their own idea home. You can see where the problem settles in.

On Friday, I liked our group dynamic when we started filming. I feel like once the camera started rolling, everyone was fine with what they were doing. The more we spoke about the "group", the deeper the hole we were digging ourselves into.

Working with people is frustrating...but what can you do, right?

You're stuck with them- better tough it up and learn how to deal because in the real world, you're not going to love every single person you work with.

Indian Summer?

I concur.

It is way too hot for it to be October. I personally enjoy colder weather because I like to layer up. I'd rather be toasty and warm in below zero weather than stripped down to practically nothing in breezy and hot weather.

I think it all stems from my self-image issues.

But anyway, summer needs to go away and make room for Autumn.

Or more like Winter now, really.

Go. Shoo.

"Yes."

Grading myself was a lot harder than it sounded.

I was stuck for quite a while thinking about all the factors that come into play when grading; creating a rubric, remember what you did and didn't do- it's a lot. I don't know how teachers come up with them. I have to say that it was a nice change though.

Instead of having to conform to someone else's "views", you created your own.